The Thing About Love….

Allah has bestowed us with his love from the moment He decided to create us. Everything from our form to our surroundings was planned for our sake, for our comfort and beauty. Our human form is so perfectly and uniquely designed that none is the same as the other. Our body is made complex, with a system so flawless, that synchronization of our movements, structure and cells is not but naturally mind-blowing. I guess when people say that God is within you, they mean that you can find prove of His existence and love through simply looking within yourself.

I’ve always been enticed by the words of Abu Ameenah Bilal Philips about Allah. She said, “If someone sincerely believes in Allah and tries to do good, Allah will give him many opportunities to improve his belief and increases his good deeds. Allah will never cause sincere belief to be wasted, even if the believer falls off the right path, He will help him get back on it. Allah may punish him in this life when he goes off the right track to remind him of his errors and to wake him up to make amends. In fact, Allah is so merciful (I’d also call it loving) as to take the life of a sincere believer while doing a good deed, thereby ensuring that the believer will be among the fortunate dweller of paradise. If someone on the other hand, disbelieves in Allah and rejects righteousness (mind you, only after one rejects the truth that has been laid clearly in front of him), Allah gives him success when he does badly and that encourages him to do more evil until he dies in such a sinful state and is flung into the everlasting fire because of his evil deeds.” Wonderful don’t you think?

Love is miraculous. A person in love can change tremendously just because of love. I mean literally you know? Personality, habits, way of life, beliefs….whatever you deemed was impossible to change, love can. Love is so ancient and powerful. Unfortunately, so blinding too. A person in love can be so delirious that something soooo wrong becomes soooo right and vice versa. At the very least, love will cause some to compromise important decisions and actions. But love is a sacred energy, honed by the power of will. One tends to be more determined and resolved with the existence of love; simply having a purpose to live for.

Some people will go through so much in life before even having the chance to taste the sweetness of love. They’d have to either see the bad side of everything, hating love, but finally find true love and honor and cherish it, or, they’d go through life without love, or rather without realizing the existence of love, believing that love wasn’t meant to be for them, and finally one day, when love hits them when they least expected it, they’d appreciate it more than they thought they would. Others have love coming their way so easily, without a finger lifted and an effort to make, it’s baffling.

I believe everyone has their own fair share of experiencing this powerful feeling of love. Love is not about the difference in age, race, religion or prejudice or even being selfish. It’s about feelings, emotions, understanding, respect, support, guidance, trust, faith, and the ability to share you with that special someone. Sometimes love hurts. But that only proves how deep the love is. It also serves as a reminder and a key to appreciation. Love is like a breath of fresh air, pure and rejuvenating. When one is able to love, he is able to do anything….

:) Thanks Love, you thought me this….

On the other side.... Sometimes, people do certain things. And at times, it may seem rude, aggressive and not to your liking. We tend to get angry or annoyed with these people. But has it ever crossed your mind that perhaps, it was your fault that they turned out the way they did. Perhaps it was the way you spoke to them, or perhaps they are the product of the environment they brought up in. Then again, it might be that they find it hard to express their feelings or thoughts. People are most often than not misunderstood, no matter how contrary their intentions were to those of what people “see it to be”. So what are we to do? Life is like a loop. One day you are the angry person and the next you’re the one misunderstood. I suppose that’s why there are many verses from the holy Qur’an that advocates patience and a hadith saying that a person who can control his anger is the strongest of people. It’s a pity that we’re always ignoring guidance. Well, that’s humans: we never learn till something happens. Just a small contemplation for today….

Back in Malaysia

Wow! It’s really been a long time since I’ve jotted anything in this little blog of mine. Pre-occupied is most likely an understatement of my life these past few weeks. Actually, many things have happened since. First, it was all the tests, assignments and projects, and then it was my finals and graduation, and finally packing to go home, sending off some friends to the airport, and visiting the rest who will still remain in Switzerland. It was definitely an emotional roller-coaster for me. Having to say goodbye to my friends was thus far one of the hardest things I had to do. But the worse was still to say goodbye to Jessica, Ting and especially Chai ~ all of which mean a great deal and hold a special place in my heart.

I guess that’s just how life is. You meet people, you get to know them, and at one point, u say goodbye. Nonetheless, memories of the times together and the strong feelings we shared will never be erased by time. Though maybe from a vivid memory, it’ll slowly be as blur as the misty water, but, I know in my heart, these memories created together are the happiest time for me. A part of my life that I’ll forever cherish, a part of my life, when I look back, only smiles and tears of joy will be the outcome of my reminiscing.

Back home, I’m missing Switzerland tremendously. I miss life with friends, I miss the freedom, I miss not being expected to do things, I miss people not judging me and accepting who I am, I miss smiling so much as I used to, I miss having to ride the bus to go to Luzern, I miss hanging out by the park or beach or just simply a nice walk with a friend by my side. One will only learn how to be grateful of things the moment they lose it. It’s very unnerving but unfortunately true. We neglect the things we love until something awful takes place. Humans….never contented with what they have.

As positive as I try to be, somehow, when I’m in Malaysia, I’m no longer the person I was in Switzerland. I find myself trapped in a little box. I’m too restricted in here, and to find my sparkle is almost impossible. I must sound pretty beat up huh? I feel like a bird without wings. For some reason, Malaysia makes me feel so negative. One person used to make me feel special, makes me feel like I deserve all the praises I received. Makes me believe I can achieve what I want to achieve. I still have my hopes and dreams close to my heart. It’s just the confidence that’s slowly deteriorating. Maybe this is just a phase in life I have to go through. Maybe…. For now, I think I’ll leave it all up to Allah. He promised that with every difficulty there’s relief and I truly and honestly believe in that. My life ahead will remain a mystery to be unravelled. I just hope that I’ll still have the strength to fight through it….